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[09;10;05
5:34pm] |
fuck there is so much drama and i cant take it anymore. i need help with it. its too hard. I mean have you ever had two friends that absolutly despised eachother. i hate it it sucks, and it hurts me more than anything. I mean everyday i have to tell one of them that i cant hang out with them because i am hanging out with the other. And mira has been talking about leaving forever and she has talked about cyberschool. and now kari is too. and then ill be left with noone that lives near me. ill have noone to drive to school with . and noone to walk with down the hall. noone to help me get out of class early. and noone to plan what im going to wear with... itll suck hard. i wish that they could just get along. but that would be too perfect right? there always has to be something to fuck yer day up. And then homecoming is a serios bitch. They both go on and off about wanting to go. and now kari is going with josh and mira is pissed cause josh is her cousin and i cant take that. so then kari said she wasnt going and at first mira said she wasnt going if kari was going to be in the same car but then she decided to deal with it. but now that this josh thing has happpened i cant take kari and mira in the same car which sucks because kari doesnt want to go. I know it sounds gay and it sounds like little girl drama but its fucking rough haveing to know that no matter what you are going to lose one of the two best friends that you have the people that you have hung out with everyday ... i mean it has to happen otherwise everyone will just be fucking tense all of the time. and kari already said that she doesnt care that mira can have me. and that hiurt me because wow once again kari can stop being friends with me so easily i dont even know how many times shes done it. so whatever . but not whatever because no matter what i fucking so i regret it. there is no winning in the situation. there never will be. and i need help desperatly i just want some miraculous thing to happen where i dont have to worry about them. whether it about them fighting or hurting me or hurting themselves thruogh pride
pride sucks
end of story
its what fucking started this whole thing
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[08;1;05
11:36pm] |
wow. im actually updating...
+mira and i are sweet again. monica and mira are sweet again and we are all friends.
+Becky and i are still cool which makes me very very happy and we took zoe and cecilia out together and they love eachother
+Christy and i are friends again and we hung out and it was just like old times. no akwardness at all. and i couldnt be more thrilled with it. we had a lot of fun. and she drank blunt water. it was soooo gross she like almost threw up.
+ADSFKJALKDSJF THE BEST NEWS EVERRRR KARI IS FUCKING UNGROUNDED SHE IS FREE!!!!!
+My mom still trusts me even more than before and i am allowed to like do whatever as long as i tell her the truth
+hhharrrissoonn is home!!
?/uhmm addie katrina and i are no longer friends but whateverrr everything else sorta cancels it out. and i always felt used by them anyways. so it doesnt really matter.
?/ Alli and i arent friends anymore. but i guess im used to it by now cause it doesnt really phase me at all. cause i mean we are still stepsisters so i guess its not like we are never going to speak again. even if she thinks that now. it might take a year or two but whatevaa. i never meant to betray her or hurt her. but i did.
- this is the only minus... sooo when kari britt and i were driving down 19 we were behind 2 motorcycle guys and like we were right behind them and then all of the sudden we see a guy walk out into the middle of 19 and the biker tries to miss him but he still hits him. and the guy on the bike like skids all the way across the rode while his leg is stuck under his bike so his bike is dragging him. so obviosly we stop to help. and we hear the pedestrian moaning and screaming in pain. and another guy is helping him so we go to the biker and he is like bleeding everywhere and his face is all bloody and so is the ground. so the police came and we are now witnesses.
it was probably the scariest thing of my life. i mean if i were in front of them i would have hit the guy. it would have been so traumatizing. ive like never felt so bad for someone i didnt even know in my whole life. maybe some of you have seen accidents and dont think its a big deal. but i never have and it was such a big deal. it all happened so fast it like didnt process.
mkay
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[03;18;05
11:55am] |
SOOOO on wednesday me and karisa went to wendy's to see tatoo guy(hes hott) and well we ordered the usual( two 5 piece nuggets) and as always it came out to 2.10 so i pull out 2 bucks and we were going around the turn and i drop the dollar. And well it had fallen on to the bars of a storm drain but it hadnt fallen in yet. so i decide that i can get out and get it bfore it drops it in, good plan right? NO, i was high. and i forgot to put the car in park and once i got fully out of the zu-zu it started moving on its own so i had to run after the car while kari is still in the passenger seat freaking out and jump indiana jones stile back into the car like a foot from hitting another car. and tatoo guy was like "you have to put it in park first." and he was nice about it though. and it was soo scary. and now our dollar is taking by the spyder boomJas and the guy in the gray suit.
kuri chicken is gay
kute gayte is not gay
get over it.
gay.
we are having a partyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy on saturday cause we are saweet.
and it will involve LOTS of double brown bommJas
and brown reddi whip and gumi worms and candy and dancing and heyyyy
bitch
tits
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So i realized this week how shallow and self centered people really are.
so tuesday during 4th period my teacher got something to read to the class. It was about the death of one of the girls that went to seneca, a senior. She had just died that morning. All i could think about was how she died. but after mr. butchle was done reading the paper noone even seemed to care. everyone kept going on and on about themselves and the things that are wrong with their life. For the remainder of that class i went to the computer lab to take a test and mira comes in balling her eyes out, and i guess it really hadnt hit me yet that she actually DIED and the next period i start crying and i mean not even a forth of the school cared.
I know people die everyday so dont even say that cause this isnt just anybody this is like someone that went to my school and you saw all the people crying and whatnot and so many people couldnt care less.
but that day i also realized that mira was also a REAL person so it definetly made me feel even more comfortable with her cause it just made me feel good that i knew that i had a friend with a heart and she actually cared and it just made me have such a higher level of respect for her.
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[02;14;05
8:10pm] |
I freaking love karisa, she is the most awesome hottest girl ever... and we are definetly lovers.
Sooo i will just talk about tonight cause if i talked about my whole weekend it would take hours.
Sooo today after school i went and picked Kari up from her house and i dont really rememeber what happened but we went to the movies and it was fun cause everyone there talked to me, that made me excited cause it made me feel like i fit in at my new place of employment. and then we got a bunch of those sketchy things and showed them to everyone and they all were like "ooh la la" and then we drove to miras and got the sketched off of her for my wall
on the way to miras there was this guy in his car and you know he was pretty cute and so we looked over and he looked over and hwe were like you know being all sexxxxy and at first he looked around like he didnt know if we were motioning to him but then i blew him a kiss and he nodded his head and it was funny
and then this other time in the car there was this guy next to us with his window rolled down and kari was like "want a clemintine?" and he was like "no thanks im pretty full unfortunately" and then kari was like "wear you going" and he was like " walmart, straigh... you turning left" and i was like "yeah your straight but we're pretty much the opposite of straigh." and hee was like " ooooh thats nice"
and then we were talking to this kid in subway matt or something? he goes to seneca hes in 10th and he was like uhmm and we just kept messing with his head and then we got cookies 3 for 1.06$$ !! thats good. and then we said he looked like nick money and he was like "shut the fuck up never say that again" and we laughed and then left
and then we went to spikes house cause all i wanted to do was spike him and we met his mom but he wasnt there cause he was at work, which is giant eagle. so we went there. and he was in preoduce. and i spiked him HARD! and then we talked to him for a while and told him our stories and then me and kari went to this guy and was like where's the wipped cream baby? and he was like sp-sp-spray?? and we were like yeah adn he showed us and we got the brown kind and then we walked out holding hands and we got into carrie's line and talked to her.
then we went back to subway to talk to matt and he was there with his two friends and they asked for a ride home so we gave them a ride home and they were like so totally freaked out, they were like running for the door (garden state) and we kept screaming and they got soo mad and it was soo funny.
And then we went to Bill's and talked to him and told him about our day. and then he did something bad! and im gonna hit him really hard tomorrow!
but anyways i love kari and she was the best valentine ever and ive nerv had a bertter valentines day!
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[01;25;05
11:02pm] |
so this weekend i had this urge to dye my hiar blackkk, cause i missed it.
so i did
( black=good(i think?) )
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OK sooo i was talking to becky, and like she asked me if i was still mad at her, which im not. but for some reason i just didnt feel the same abbout her. but i guess that just happens. So she asked me to like grade her or something. so i did, it was based on other people and four main things
basically you get 100% if
1.)youve never fucked me over
2.)you havent for a long time or have never talked shit on me
3.)you can make me laugh under any circumstances
4.)you have never gotten on my nerves
and i guess it actually works like school. everyone starts out at 100%, and ofcourse the most involved stay at 100% but if you fail to measure up to or stay on tasks with one or more of the rules you start to go down in percentages. its really quite facinating once i got started thinking on it. because the more and mroe i thought about it only 3 girls are at 100%. Once you drop below 100% you can start to regain yourself by keeping to these 4 things. but it is impossible to reach 100% without extra hard work ( like extra credit in school). So basically there is only 3 girls that currently have 100% to me. And thats CHRISTY, MONICA, AND KARI. now i know what youre thin king if you read my last entry "how can kari still be at 100% she broke the rules..." Well amazingly enough the second i saw kari in school i instantly felt that my being mad at her was completely ridiculous cause it wasnt her fault. and she has had so much "extra credit" from inside jokes, dion, and phrases that she is pretty much sitting very comfortably at 100%.
And i was thinking about the guys, but then i thought that guys really dont annoy me. well at least ones that are hott. if they arent hott then they are probably most likely not at 100% but i think itd be very hard for a guy to drop below. so obviously i didnt think it was fair to hold them in the same catagory.
but i still love becky, i just find it harder to trust her for some reason. but there in no way that something as gay as this could ever get in between us
<3 katelynn
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[01;17;05
7:16pm] |
seriously i wish people would jsut grow up and stop lieing. people this weekend have really fucked me over. it all started out on friday mira goes to southside even though we wre supposed to do something, but i wasnt upset about taht cause i was kind of excpecting her to, and i dont think mira ever intentionally hurts anyone. then kari goes to robinson even though i said id call her when i got done with my lesson so we could do something. then saturday becky ditches me for alli, even though just the week before becky talked about how f'ed up alli was for leaving us for mary. and she didnt even call me to tell me. at least i got ahold of kari and mira that night.
but anyways me and becky made up, and i still love her. mira like i said before i cant be mad at her cause nothing is ever really set in stone with her.
but then i tried telling kari what i thought. and so she goes on to tell me that i talk shit on her???? i mean what is that. out of all the poeple i know the only people lately that i have found really nothing wrong with were kari, monigga, and christy(ofcourse). but i guess someone told her differently and seriously if i ever find out who im gonna fucking stab them, cause i hate liars. and then kari wont even tell me who it was. i mean who does that. i dont know if she was just making it up to have an excuse to be mad at me? or what?
but all i know right now is i wish christy was back... for like all of break and before she was the only person i hung out with and i was content with that, christy didnt cause drama for me... instead she had her own drama with andrew and vincey to focus on. and that kept me away from this kind of drama. seriosly if i had to chose one friend or many friends id chose one friend. it keeps everything so much simpler. i wish it would go back to the way it was like at miras bday party everyone was still together and was still friends.
i also wish hira was back. she was the best person ever to talk to thing about. after she left i turned to christy... she kept my secret and i kept hers. but then chriosty went away to and everyone else has a huge mouth so now i have to find someone new
___ihateliarsandsluts
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oh yeah annnnnd maddy is having a birthday thing the 29th i tghink we are going to the zoo, anyone that is friends with maddy is welcome to come. if it is approved by maddy duuh
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just so there is no feuds between my family and allis family, i like it that alli and becky are making up. cause i want us all to be able to hang out. And i love becky and i love alli so duh it makes even more sense that i want all o fus to hangout cause itd be trple the love
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[01;16;05
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CHRISTYYYY CALLED ME TODAY!!!!!!!
i got sooo friggin excited and confused when i saw her name appear on the screen and i answered and theres this squeaky voice the says "kaattee??" and itttttt was refreshing as hell to hear her voice considering i was so upset this morning. and its been 15 days since ive seen her and it feels like monthhs
if she wouldnt have gotten in troublw then she would be right beside me right now and i wouldnt be making the post and we would probably be trying to find a way to imperial or to get high. and she would have come over friday and we would have done the same thing everynight cause thats the way we worked and we probably would have gotten pizza every night.
but she's not and i jsut wanted to let everyone know that i talked to her and it was the best phone call ive ever gotten so far (but the next one from her will probably be even better)
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[12;26;04
9:35pm] |
I miss the good days of riding so hard
me and ash had so much flipping fun before everythng went to dirt
seriosly id wake up go to the barn and go on a trail with ashley, and no matter how safe we were we'd ALWAYS get hurt in some way.
id come home with like scratches all over my face from galloping through the thorns. but i felt rough. so when \my friends would ask id make something up so i sounded rougher.
So heres to the best days of my life
like the time when we rode across 19 cause i made her to go and ride in my plan. some asshole saw us on 19 and called the barn and ratted us out. when we got back the whole friggin barn was waiting for us... we lost our "riding privleges"
or like the time when mav jumped up the bank and it was like 3 feet out of the water...
or like the time when mav dumped ash in the creek and the only part that was covered in thorn bushes and i couldnt stop laughing and ashley was friggin crying
i would always make her go first. she was alllwayyys my hero when it came to that shit.
this one time i told her about horse swimming so i made her go in a lake first and our phones were in the saddle pack. so both our cell phone died
me and ash just had a convo about all of this. so that is why i am remembering the good days and writing about it.
we used to spend allllll day at the barn... now i barely ever spend 3 hours.
i never enjoyed riding more than when i was with ash.. especially when it was me on mesahck and her on maverick/spice man.
xkrazyklutz: so u know wuts the weirdest
BlckOutOrchestra: hm?
xkrazyklutz: is that like in school and stuff..ud never ever think we'd be horse ppl, and least likely, friends...seriously. were like the two opposites sometimes..and yet wwe always have the most fun together and were so much alike when we're on horses
BlckOutOrchestra: haha i knoow
BlckOutOrchestra: like youd never put the two together
xkrazyklutz: like my friends r like "u and kate marshall? u guys hang out together?"
BlckOutOrchestra: hahaa
xkrazyklutz: and like we dont hang out, but when we;re at the barn..its like we culd b the same person
the sad thing is that is soo friggin true i hardly talk to ash in school.. we belong in two completely different cliques but out of school we have the best flippin time
even when we werent allowed to go anywhere wed still have fun cause my dog would chase her while she was riding spice.
or wed try and round the horses up.
okay thats all this is a lot. but i needed to let everyone knoooow
ps i am STILL having mad christy withdrawl. she is heroin
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So today i got a lot accomplished
i sorted a lot of shit out
-- First thing, me and mira worked everything out. we talked about the shit i talked on her. I finally decided why i did it, and it was just cause i was jealous that she could be so confident and outgoing. and how she can make friends so easily, and then theres me who doesnt like people right off the bat. AND so that everyone knows there will be no more of that
--Alli and i talked. Although i doubt everything is fixed between us at least there wont be anymore LJ battles. and we talked it over ON THE PHONE. And we talked about what we heard. not as long of a talk as me and mira's but enough to keep us civil and not destroy our parents relationship. oh yeah and like i said before everything that she said is false in her last comment! cept the bimmer part.
--Seriously if anyone heres me talking shit on mira again slap me so hard i wont be able to talk again. cause i truly think that she is the only person that i have talked shit on and didnt actually go to her and tell her how i felt. probably ccause she is the only person that i said stuff about solely because i was jealous, and wouldnt admit it.
--I feel a lot better today. (not physically:( ) i feel like for once confronting and not tiptoeing around shit to make myself look better was the right thing to do, and it turned out better than i had hoped. i feel so great. the only thing holding me back from being realllly great is that hira is moving, but on the other hand i know she is going to have a great time if she lets herself. i dont think i could ask for better friends.
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Soooo this weekend was HIRA's SURPRISE BONVOYAGE and it was sweet
-Me
-becky
-christy
-andrew
-zarley
-rocco
-mira
-kari
-Matt
-Charise
-alexz
-AND DUH HIRAAA
and well i had a super gooood time we went to the beehive and down to the hookah bar (sp?) but it was most fun coming back at night cause we all hung out in my family room.. kari and mira went home :(... bbuuutt then we made the boys sleep outside in the car and then next morning they were frozen
annnd i think that its rude of people to not come to hiras bonvoyage when she's moving to pakistan when you so easily could have, its time to grow up.
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So tonighht christy came over then adelino, rich and tino came over then we went into the hot tub and talked a lot it was lots of fun me and rich got one of those drawing scetch things from the movie theater then me and christy ordered pizza then i got mad at her for being on the phone then i was tired so i went to bed then she came up to my room and attacked me then for an hour and a half she wouldnt stop following me and she kept like being like iwant to snuggle. and as most of you know i dont like to be touched if im not in the mood, or i dont like you. well i was just not in the mood in this case cause i looove christy soo much. she still chased me and it was scary and she beat me and hit me and i hit her back and kicked her and slapped her then she was tired so i needed to annoy her since i was in the mood to touch i just started talking about pointless shit like the color of my horse like LIZ does and she got really pissed off so i left and started talking to adelino online that is
where i am now so byyye I LOVE cHrIsTy SO FUCKING MUCH
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so this weekend was super fun and stuff. but the only real highlight of my weekend was christy
we went to the mates of state show on saturday night and me and christy didnt want to see the first three bands so we left. we went down to the main street of south side. we ran for like ever. i dont know why we were running either. we stopped at beehive and got a drink and there was this realllly hott guy working and stuff. then we left and we went to slackers and got little guns. and then we smelled weed and we were luike where is it?! and this guys was like its my new cologne. and we laughed and then almost got hit by a car. and then we went to burger king and christy got fries and the guys gave her like 1978349013840912384 ketchups. and then we ran some more. and people thouight we were lesbians and some guy came out of the bar and was like her punk rock girrrrrrrls and me and christy laughed. And christy was playing with nmy new phone cause its awesome and she was typing on the keyboard random letters and since alli is the first contact on my phone, we accidentaly sent it to her 14 times. and then we sent something else 2 times that was to mira and becky asking them why they wouldnt come down. and she thought i was being a bitch which made me laugh for like ever.
this whole time mira and becky were being dumb and boring. so they didnt come
then we all came back to my house and becky got mad cause her and mira were on the top bunk and me and christy on the bottom and we kept laughing and playing with cecilia. and cecilia bit christy's butt realllllly hard. and i couldnt stop laughing_(that word looks weird did i spell it right?)_And becky and mira were still being boring adn then me and chris gave up and went to beddd
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Oh godddd the "katelynandkarisa" adventures came back to us today in an epic adventure of; skipping school.
_So it all started when I saw kari on my way to the computer lab 1st period. she pulledme aside into this odly dark room that i never knew existed before and said "THE SPYDER is forcing us to skip!," and then in a dull whisper said,"He's back and wants revenge."
_So we run, we bolt to the back lot entrance of the school and walk along the curb, cars are whizzing by us going like 80 miles an hour, trying to hit us. But we dodge them all. The only thing that gym class is ever good for, learning to dodge.
_Since there were evil car dealers trying to kill us we duck into the intermediate. But, the intermediate is much much different. It had spyder webs and blood everywhere. We were too scared to stay in there. Then just as we were about to make our exit those damn spyders start coming after us asking "where are you going, for what, why?" are answers didnt phase them, they knew exactly what was going down. They then take us to there holding chamber. It was the most grotesque place i had ever been blood, mucus, rotting corpses everywhere. But then at the perfect time...
_We bolt. Up 100's of steps trying to escape the rath of the spyders. Out into the blistering cold, snow flying in our faces. Blinding us. But just then one of the car dealers stops us and chases us back into the school, where we were called down by the pharoah and forced to confess everything, otherwise they would rid us of everything important to us (ei- ::Cough coughs:: milk chugs pffft fucking gypsies to make fun of) it was unbearable the thought of going day to day without the things that make me and kari awefully mean.
_We confessed, and after careful observations, they believed us. So we got
off with only on lifetime in detention.
till next time
/<3 katelyn alexis marshall
ps maddy, you are the coolest and i love you
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Righhht now i am in school 8th period being rough. so i am gonna make a list... i have done this before but it has changed a lot nooow
Things:
LIKE- Jackets.LipGloss.Plugs.NiceWritingPens.MoulinRouge.ThebloodBrothers.DillingerEscapePlan.Dancing.Singing.
Trampolines.Tattoos.GirlPants.Hoodies(guys, but really tight).TightShir(forguysduh).Mira'sNicknameMerduh. MakingFunOfPeople.ReunitingWithFriends.LipPeircings.Swimming.Rain.Storms.
DONTLIKE-
NailPolish.TheGrudge.BoringPeople.PeopleThatTalkBehindBacks.TwoFaced.LipGlossThatBurnsMyLips.WhenPeopleCallMeTrendy/Emo(cause i am not!!!).Tests.APClasses.Mud.HotWeather.
peoplethataresweeeeeeeet
Mira(Duh)
Christy
Becky
Alli
Kari
Hira
(only girls, cause well i dont know just cause i dont have enough time)
By the way the really really hott black kid is in here and when he came in my heart jumped lyke woahhhh. HE'S SOOOO FUCCKKKING HOTTTTT.
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Sooo i have been having funnn lately sorta not really.
--thursday was Q and not U which was realllly fun i danced and stuff... i got to see alexz and i got to see alli and ofcourse kari mira and hira
--Today i went to a fun show at the barn and god i like died... right now my ear is ssooooo puffed up its like half the size of my head and i have a gash behind it and i ahve a humongous bruise on my neck and in my knee... What happened was...
Well we were doing the "boxer shorts race", as in me and ashweyy.. This is where one person stands at one end of the ring and another at the other, the first person has boxers on and has to race down to their partner and jump offf the horse and give them to the partner. At this time the 2nd p[erson is to put them on and get on and person numb 1 has to get on too. well ash got on before me cause i was person 1 and she started running of when i had just gotten on and my feeet werent in the stirrups. Indi is an X race horse and he thought we were racing so he took off lyke woah and i wasnt situated
So when we were almost back indi started running spicer over and then i fell off right in between the two horses the last thing i remember was thinking "please dont let spicer step on me"
I must have blacked oiut when i hit the ground cause i didnt remember rolling about 10 feet over pools and stuff but when i got up my ear was gashed open and i couldnt bend my knee and i was shaking uncontollably. it sucked. I couldnt move for a while cause i was dizzy and shaking and couldnt think straight. for about an hour after that i still wasnt able to concentrate on anything and i felt like i was going to pass out.
but i continued in the show succesfully.
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sooo things were going well before but now they arent going so well. My dad officially told me he doesnt want me around anymore. which sucks cause it is the house that i felt more comfortable at. Im pretty excited for homecoming... me rich becky mira (kari ben?) but yeah and all the sweet kids from seneca. Friday the ssb wants everyone to go to station scare so go! Annnnnd yeah. all day saturday we shall be getting ready(the girls anyway) i want to make rich straighten his hair, itd be fun. and tomorrow there is no school and stuff... and yeah...
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